The title pretty much sums up my life right now! Chugging up one side of life to slide right down the other (a great Chris Ledoux song) ....or in my case it's usually stomped on the breaks asking myself why I took this shortcut and why didn't I ever fix those trailer breaks! That's right about the time the pedal goes to the floor and the rear view catches my eye long enough to see the look of desperation in the cattle squashed through the trailer rails. What do you think a cow ruminates about in a situation like that? Think it actually contemplates the missed opportunities of green grass? Maybe it really was greener on the other side? Or maybe, what if she had been nicer to that old bull.....it just could have been true love! Alas the story has a happy ending. The "Ol' Ford" never lets me down and the breaks always manage to stop us...sometimes we're in front of the stop sign....and sometimes we're in the middle of the intersection but we're stopped. My life has seemed to become that scenario lately...too slow up the mountains and too fast to the bottom of the next one. What can you do about it but take it like the picture above "just knuckle down and ride it out."
My brother has coined a phrase "Leave '09 Behind." I'm thinking that should be on a t-shirt with a happy face. It has been a rough year, but with rough times we seem to learn a little more about ourselves. I admit ....I bring on most of my own troubles. I chalk it up to Irish heritage, a stubborn streak 2x the normal size, and the brash devil may care attitude I go through life with.
However, I've cleared some obstacles this year that make me feel like an Olympic hurdler..just not so much of the short shorts or all that damn running. The trials and tribulations have left me a little spent and for the first time in my life I'm actually letting go of things. To tell you the truth I'm in coast mode for the rest of the year. What does coast mode entail? It means I leave for work a little later than usual now days...(not the mandatory out the door by 6:45 am routine I usually have), I leave work a little bit earlier ( earlier than I usually do) when I can, I take mental health sick days and do nothing productive. My horses get rode more just for fun now than opposed to actually accomplish any training. Haven't competed for anything in a couple of months so the saddle's getting cold but right now I'm OK with that.
In the meantime my family is great, Jenn is wonderful, rain is here, and God loves me. So I'll just keep making my mark, keeping rhythm with the bucks, and just enjoying "one hell uv a ride!"
LB
